Post Holiday Confessions

Good Afternoon Readers!




So how did you all do with the holiday this past weekend? I did not do as well as I had hoped I would. I know my eyes are bigger then my stomach so I tried to keep the amounts on my plate small, but I still ended up cleaning my plate. I know I probably shouldn’t have had those last few bites of stuffing and I definitely should not have had the piece of pumpkin pie (even if it was small). I had about an hour or so between dinner and dessert but I still shouldn’t have eaten it. After I was done I realized that I didn’t enjoy it as much as I used to and I felt a little sick. I was disappointed in myself but I guess it could have been worse. I choose to have a little salad, turkey, and stuffing. Now at my house we actually had two kinds of stuffing along with sweet potatoes, cranberries, and bread. So at least I only ate my favorites and left the things that I didn’t care about as much off my plate to avoid eating more then I should. I also did not finish my salad so I guess I didn’t really clean my plate. I also only had one small glass of wine, which was not what I expected to happen. I figured that the way my family is sometimes that they would drive me to drink. But not this year, no real drama started which is good. It also made for a boring evening but boring is better then drama so I’ll take it.

I was bad this whole weekend though. I snacked more then I usually do, partially from hunger and partially from boredom, and I just didn’t make great choices. I also only got to the gym once last week. I think I need to get my scale fixed or buy a new one. Once I am weighing myself twice a week I’ll probably get my good habits back. I also drank too much this weekend. Wow, do any of you feel like my priest in the confessional right now? I really am spilling my sins for all of you. But I guess that is part of the change in attitudes that comes with the surgery. In the past I would hide my slip ups and not want to let people know my mistakes. Now I wear them right out in front like a scarlet letter in order to avoid repeating them. Shouting them from the rooftops makes me feel more accountable and encourages me to straighten up and act right.

A few weeks ago my brothers and I had portraits taken as a Christmas present for my mom. She said that she hasn’t had any new, professional pictures of us since we were in high school and that was what she wanted for Christmas. So we trotted down to the studio and had our pictures taken. I was a little disappointed. I was hoping to look at the pictures and say “Wow, I look so much better” but instead I saw that I am still very unproportioned. I noticed where my shirt caught at my stomach and felt like my ass was big enough to have a name, like Mount blubber butt or something. I guess that just tells me that I have more to lose. Which I already knew but after losing almost 70lbs you are so ecstatic by how good you feel sometimes you forget that the battle isn’t over yet. I also need to make my lazy butt get to the gym. It wasn’t just my schedule this week keeping me away and I know it. I am planning to try to go to a spin class this week. I tried spin last year around this time and it was an unholy nightmare. I didn’t have the energy or the stamina for it. The room was so hot I felt like I was dying and I ended up with a very black and blue butt. I didn’t even make it through the second class I went to because it hurt so much just to sit on those horrible seats. That might still be a problem, but I’m betting that being 70lbs lighter will make it a little bit easier on me. If I could add one class in a week it would probably go a long way towards getting rid of that Mount Blubber Butt ass of mine. I hold most of my weight in my butt and thighs so getting them moving more will probably help. I can’t really run because I have a bad knee so I need to keep to low impact stuff.

So I guess that is the plan, get my calories back on track, drink less, go to the gym more, and try spinning again. Wish me luck!