A Sleever's worst nightmare

I had something funny but not so funny happen this weekend. You see, Coach and I do not have a lot of friends who live in the area any more. So most evenings are spent with the two of us and a movie. I have been wanting to get together with one of his friends and his girlfriend for a while, thinking that it would be fun to do a double date. So they called us to go to dinner and the Casino on Friday night with the two of them and some other friends of Coaches. I jumped at this opportunity for us to go out and to hopefully help Coach reconnect with some buddies. They said they wanted to have dinner at the Casino. Guess what they picked, Every Sleever’s nightmare, THE BUFFET!!!!

I thought it wouldn’t be a big deal, that I would just have more options to choose from and in some ways it could be great because I could just have a tiny bite of anything I was interested in. Well It wasn’t that easy. First I walked through trying to decide what I wanted to eat and I found that very little appealed to me. All my fellow sleevers know that when you are not hungry you just aren’t hungry. I almost got some rice but luckily remembered that I shouldn’t have that before I put any on my plate. I thought about pasta but I knew I needed more protein then that. So after much wondering I finally managed to fill my plate with a little bit of different things. But when I got back to the table I discovered that Coaches friends really took their buffet seriously. They had soup and salad piled high on their plates and that was just their first course. Even the other girlfriend in the group ended up going back two more times to fill her plate. The guys (except Coach) each went a total of four times, not counting dessert.

I picked at my food. It was ok but not the best and I kept feeling like I couldn’t get servings of some things because they were too big and I didn’t want to waste food. I didn’t really even eat enough when the problem should have been eating too much. I finally gave up on dinner and went to get dessert (while everyone else was only on their second plate of food). My eyes were bigger then my stomach at the dessert table. I got three small desserts and took them back to the table. I ate a little of the first one (Gelato), then let the other two sit in front of me while the others ate. Once and awhile I took a small bite from one of the other two and I got Coach to have some too. I still probably didn’t even eat a whole dessert but it was better than just watching everyone else eat. And the worst part, was that Coach paid 28 DOLLARS for my meal! I mean the two of us together probably ate as much as one of the other people we were with. I honestly wish we could have just shared a plate. I didn’t think that the buffet people would buy that idea though.

Coach’s friends did notice my weight loss and said something to him about it. They don’t know about my sleeve of course, but the last time I saw them was the weekend after surgery and that was 34lbs ago. So it’s nice to know that people see a difference. It was kinda funny because usually Coach gets upset about spending money on meals that I only eat part of (even if I take home the leftovers) but this time he wasn’t bothered at all. I was really glad about that and I bought all his drinks at the Casino after to make up for it. And I bought Lunch the next day because I still felt bad. I really appreciated him not saying anything and I think he understood that it was a little awkward for me. Honestly it might have been for him too. He is a health conscious guy and isn’t one to go overboard like the rest. He had two plates of food and a few bites of my desserts. That was it. So he probably felt a little weird himself being one of only two people who weren’t putting on the feed bag. But we still had a good time. I enjoyed spending time with his friends, I like them a lot. And I had fun gambling, even if I did lose 60$. I kinda laugh at the whole thing now picturing a sleever at a buffet. If the others only knew. They were probably really confused. LOL. Oh well!

I have realized I have to get my butt moving more. I didn’t make it to the gym at all this week because stuff kept popping up and I only lost two pounds this week. Before I went on vacation I was steadily losing three pounds a week. While I was away I only lost two which I wasn’t disappointed about. But this week I only lost two again and I can’t have that keep up. If I am going to lose everything in six months like my doctor said I need to keep the three pound a week thing going. I also have to be better about my protein. Being away for a week messed up that good habit too. I find I lose weight better when I do get in all my protein. I will have to make sure to work that in. I was supposed to be down by 56lbs by my next doctor’s appointment and I won’t make it if I keep up this two poinds a week thing. I’m down 44lbs now so I may not make it at all. I have three weeks until my appointment. So time to rev my engine and get this body moving!!!